your tears don't fall

All these years I wanted something to change. I wanted to be happy and thought that the world would have to change for this to be so. I spent years denying some things that now I believe to be true has caused me some relief. I realized I had to change myself before happiness would ever come to me. Over the years I believed I was damned to hell, that I was the scum of the earth due to the things I had done to others and to myself. I guess I was. I am afraid my past will consume me but while I sat in jail I decided that I wanted to change.