Wednesday, May 30, 2007

idk

another fucked up job i got, didn't even bother starting to work at this one. hopefully i'll find a real job soon.

i see this thing about lohan going back into rehab, and it just pisses me off that celebrities get all the attention when really there are millions of people with addiction problems struggling in the united states.

also i want to see a change in drug laws



Link to Drug War Facts

Wednesday, May 23, 2007

Iraq war and how to fight it

I've been reading this book and it has become clear to me that our country is not doing something it should.

We do this whole war on Iraq thats all well and good I personally have no problems with it, but if you do oh well, go protest or something. However through our war we are doing nothing to stop the influx of new recruits. There should be a major PR campaign going on worldwide. The biggest grievance the Muslim people have is that we are big and powerful and we are not them. When I say not them I also mean that we have freedom of religion, and are not Muslim. This might sound pretty fucking stupid, but somehow getting across the image that they could be powerful to if they went to work at it instead of some of their best minds joining the jihad against us, they might not be so willing to try and destroy us. Or something along those lines. I highly doubt that alone would work, but it might be able to help stem the support from all the Muslim peoples throughout the Middle East.

Wednesday, May 9, 2007

existential depression

I just read this article and it basically defined what I have felt my entire life, only now its so much more. Death, freedom, isolation, meaninglessness. We all die, in order to survive we must give up certain freedoms, we can never really grow close to someone. And if you add all these things together there is really no point. Only add to it my past and you get something greater. In my opinion most of the things I've done in the past have been bad things. Now sometimes I don't see how I'll ever be able to overcome my past and create something better. Most times I am able of deluding myself into thinking I can be so much more, but at times I just don't see the point. Also each day I spend alone at the house with nothing changing just slowly wears away and self confidence I might have had.

Thursday, May 3, 2007

been awhile

its been awhile since my last post. got checked into treatment again. got out again. had a job interview I am waiting to hear back on, hopefully it won't take to long, and then I received a letter from my lawyer today telling me my court date has been set for a month and a half from now. however having been unable to get ahold of said lawyer I really have no idea whats in store for myself at the court date.